If you’re not Ariel, you don’t need to see this. This is a redirect page. This is for Ariel to self-soothe. It’s not password protected because Ariel finds entering passwords annoying. This is for Ariel when she’s already annoyed and needs to be re-directed to this site and away from others. She uses the browser plug-in Block Site; Block Site makes it so going to facebook.com or twitter.com redirects Ariel to this page instead. She does this sometimes when she’s about to post on social media and she knows she’s anxious and really just wants to be alone, and to eat or watch a movie or something. Sometimes she enters the URL of this site in her browser when she wants to text someone she loves or wants to love who is probably busy or sad or exhausted (maybe by her or someone else). And that’s why they haven’t texted her back in a while.

Ariel: You want to say something to someone. I know. You feel like if you don’t say it you’ll forget it and it feels important.

Do not say it to them. Do not say anything. Be very quiet and still for at least a moment. Stop typing or writing on paper.

If you still need to say something, ask yourself:

• Is it stressing you out to think about the potential consequences of what you are about to say? If so, maybe don’t say it.

• At least for now. Walk away. Put it down. Put the whole computer down. Or if you’re too scared to let go of the phone or the computer, go to UbuWeb instead of saying anything. Watch a short film. Get some sun. You like those things. You like those feelings more than the ones you are having.

• Do you still feel like saying it right now?

• If so, will this person like hearing this, or will it make them worried about you? Or hurt their feelings?

• Don’t think about this too hard. Go with your gut. Is your gut angry or sad? If you’re angry or sad at this person, don’t say anything. If outside is scary, eat some ice. Or take a shower. You love showers! Touch a fabric.

• Or do you maybe want this person to be worried about you? Or do you maybe want to hurt their feelings?

• Why? You probably love this person. Maybe you want them to help you with something?

• What do you need help with? Could you ask for something smaller or easier for them to do?

• Maybe you just need to talk through something with someone? Can you tell your therapist later?

• Or are you avoiding doing something? What’s scaring you?

• If you don’t know, are you just looking for comfort? Can you make it clear that that’s what’s happening without annoying the other person? Or, can you find a person it wouldn’t bother who has some time for you?

• Okay. You can say it to them later. But don’t say anything right now, because you’re too exhausted and scared to talk to people right now.

• It’s okay. You can go do something else. If you still need something later, the webpage and maybe the person will be there.